whenever I saw E all that I could feel is FeAR
nothing else that I could ever remember
but only the bitterness that kills me
not everything that could be forgotten easily
not every stain that could be wiped out easily

every step that I've made had been so wrong
wish I knew what I'm doing
wish I knew why I did this
wish I knew what had happened to me
wish I knew the answer to them who ask.. why did I ended up with E
wish I knew why I've changed..

the trauma kept breaking in into my life
wish it would stop bothering me...
day by day it kept haunting me..

-help-